Saturday, November 27, 2010

I Was Crying Like a Baby..

I have learned to live minute by minute over the last 2 years... I fall to pieces if I try to plan too far ahead because there is always the risk that something planned will have to be cancelled. That is so disheartening. For some odd reason a lot of people think I have it all together... Boy are they all WRONG!!! I just want you to know that I have some really crazy bad days .. where I have to fight off depression and tears all day.

Anyway - back to the story... today has been one of those bad kind of days. I could feel it the minute I opened my eyes. Don had to leave for work early and today he has to work "bell to bell" which means open to close. There is no rhyme or reason to all of this .. since I do have things to do today.. but it still was a struggle to get up and going. Once in motion, I did feel better. I fed the animals.. which I love to do. I wrapped some gifts for my daughter and her family. They will be leaving tomorrow for their new home in Mississippi. Then I heard my dogs barking. It was our mail lady. She was driving up our driveway. I ran down to meet her and she handed me a rather large parcel.

I walked back upstairs before I opened it. To my complete surprise, the package was sent from Brita, a Saddlebred, sidesaddle enthusiast and the most gifted gardener I have ever met! I carefully tore the wrapping away to reveal this treasure. The second I saw it Brita, tears were falling down my cheeks.

I curled up in the corner of my sofa and carefully thumbed through this magnificent book. Your generosity has gone beyond what you could have imagined.. All the hours I spend in hospital rooms and waiting rooms, I lug along a back pack with no less than 3 books. Some to read, some to entertain and a very special few that just allow me to get lost in my own imagination and dreams for the future. That is what this book represents to me... time to explore my dreams and something to make the time fly when it would other wise grind to a halt!

Brita... I just cannot thank you enough.


ACountryCowgirl said...

What a raw and honest post. Thank you for sharing. I am sorry it was a bad day but know it helped me. It is hard to struggle with health and depression and a lot of people can't understand. What and awesome gift for a day like that:)

Unknown said...

wow what a generous gift! I would love to look through that book I bet that made your whole day.

Oregon Equestrian said...

I'm a firm believer in taking a little time out to wallow in tears. So often we have to stuff down the fears, frustration, and depression in order to get done what needs to be done. That doesn't mean that those emotions go away. However, when you can take a moment for yourself -- let 'em rip. Indulge yourself. Once you've relieved the pressure cooker, you can return to the needs at hand with a little more energy and focus.

I'm just now catching up with your blog again.

I love the tack and accoutrements of sidesaddle riding that you share with us. Glove clips and skirt clips and whips created at a time when workmanship was prized. The items sport creative designs that weren't necessary but just make something simple appear very special.

Sherry Sikstrom said...

Wonderful gift! and a big cyber hug to you

SmartAlex said...

I'm so glad the gift caught you at a time when you needed it. When I saw the book in your blog, I couldn't wait to get back home and check my bookshelf. I was sure it was the same one I had and I felt if it was there, I needed to send it to you post haste. I guess I was right. See, gifting makes both people feel all warm and appreciated.

Janice Grinyer said...

Oh we need more Britas in the world!